New Season - New Turn In Life.

 This is a month of September and here in Canada we have a Fall season starting. I always loved fall because of its colors. In this season suddenly green leaves turn into Red and Orange. Just a perfect surprise from nature. While enjoying a day to day action packed fun life of summer one day you suddenly stumble upon a tree in neighborhood and find that it hs turned into Red. The Fall is coming. Surprise!!!

 This Fall has not only brought change in nature around me but also has brought many changes in my life. One of those changes are related to color Red. For me color Red is color of Love.  After almost 2 years long hot dry summer finally I am seeing some red leaves in my personal life. :) .  And what makes more surprising to me is this guy is no drama, perfect gentleman. A Man, not a guy.  I am taking things slow with him.  How I met him and all is very funny story.

 Just like advertisements of FMCG products change every 4 weeks, my celebrity male crushes change every 4 weeks. Few years back I got this hot crazy stupid crush on Ryan Reynolds. Then I wished I want boyfriend who look like Ryan Reynolds. Few months back I fell in love with actor and indy film maker Ed burns. I liked his personality, in fact I still like his personality. He appears to be a perfect husband material. So after watching his movies again and again I wished to have boyfriend who has personality and voice like Ed burns.  Just before I saw this guy online, one day while surfing on Facebook I saw this religious post saying your wishes are coming true, comment 'Amen' to accept them. Generally I don't entertain such post but that time something made me to comment on it. I did that and next week I saw this guy on dating site. I said hi to him, he replied and my story started.


 With this post I wanna share this funny story of coincidences. Once I wished to have boyfriend like Ryan Reynolds and once I wished to have boyfriend like Ed Burns. And you won't believe but this guy just look like Ryan Reynolds and has personality and nature of Ed Burns' character Gerry from movie Fitzgerald Family Christmas. If this was less then his voice is also similar to Ed Burns' :)

He is a very nice guy, I am gonna give him time, gonna go slow with him. With him I feel something that I never felt with any guy before. He makes me feel like playing game of Golf with him.  Even though he doesn't play Golf, I am gonna give chance to this possible relationship.

Fingers crossed!

Not Without Muscles - Sad Truth Of Gay Life

After dancing, singing, throughout my 20s when I have reached in my late twenties; with very heavy heart I am writing this post to my readers. Almost throughout my all blog posts you were getting a hint of craziness that I have for being in relationship with super-duper hot hunky good looking guy. I spent my whole life waiting for that guy, when passed college I found various things that I needed to get boyfriend. I always though that good job, decent education, good status in society and and good clothes are all ingredients of good romantic life.It is not false. I worked for these things and I got them but now I am heading towards next most essential ingredient that makes relationship with hot guy possible. It is the thing that I have been ignoring and excusing about for my whole life. It is called having oneself a muscular physique.


 I was never a macho guy. Biking, drinking, smoking and up to last few months playing violent video games and going to gym, these all things were manly things for me. I always felt uncomfortable doing them. Especially that gym and diet freakyness. I am a proud Indian Gay and I cannot imagine my life without love and spicy, oily Indian food. So if I don't have boyfriend then spicy Indian food is my chocolate. I don't wanna sacrifice that. I don't wanna sacrifice my early morning good sleep and go to gym! I would rather spend more time in office and earn more money than going regulary to gym early in the morning by sacrificing tasty food. For me it is as difficult as making love to a woman.

I literally feel like dramatically screaming Nahiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

But there is an old saying that you reap what you sow. And then there is one more said saying magic starts out of your comfort zone. I have been doing all possible things to get hot boyfriend but didn't got any. I tried to be balanced and "cool" but no one replied my message. I am not blowing my own trumpet but no matter how much funny I sound here, I have my own gentle personality. I am a very caring guy. Girls that don't know I am gay say about me that I will be a very good caring husband. If I love some one then I love him by my heart, body, mind and soul. I will love not only him but his family also, his friends also even his dog also. I am an adarsh Indian gay guy, I have my own little share of sati savitri Indian nari who sees her husband as god! I will be the man that will love him like lover, play with him like his brother and care him like his dad. This is what I have to offer to my boyfriend. but what if me going to gym and gaining muscles is the first step of all my relationship blueprints? What if having a good body is the first and basic thing that requires in gay love life ? I like muscular guys so I will have to be like one of them. Ripped, muscular with hot body.

 They say looks doesn't matter, love is blind but does that really work in today's real world? Technology has hijacked normal human life, emotions and ways of communication. Everything is myth except tangible material things. Then why not having muscles cannot give you more dates, more replies on Grindr and a hot boyfriend? I know what I want, a hot boyfriend and I am not gonna compromise for that. And for that I need a hot body. So I will HAVE To get that. I don't wanna run away from facts. I wanna have good things in my life and if this is gonna get me a kind of boyfriend that I like then I will do it. It will be a slow process but will do. Not for my physic, not for my self esteem, not for sex but for heart.

 I don't regret of wasting these many years of my 20s without working out because at that time I was working on other important stuffs. I had another battle then. But now when other things in my life are settling down I think I can take this project. I don't have option, I have to take this. This is a biggest sacrifice that I am doing for my future love.
Kill me now honey, for you I am ready to do this even.

I don't know HOW Iam gonna do this but I AM GONNA Do this for sure!