Mystery of unknown future..

Mystery of unknown future or should I say mystery of other side?

I do not know that....

Why I am asking this question? It is beautiful Tuesday morning, I am having off, I woke up early, did my tai chi, was having tea and enjoying this beautiful weather and then he came. Thought of boyfriend. Why I do not have a good boyfriend yet? And this time it hurt me. No No No this is not a simple deal for me. I am a guy in my late twenties, I am gay and to be who I am I have done great sacrifices in my life and now when I am in that stage of life where everything is ok I need not to wait for boyfriend. This is what I think.

 To me, what hurt most about not having boyfriend is not that missing fun or love making but what hurt me most is that he is not in my life. he who I love most in my whole life after god. He the one who is my everything after god and there is nothing in this physical world that can be dearer to me than him. Whose even a one single semi smile can make me jump in the sky, who sing "hey dear" can make my day, by looking whom my eyes will lit like thousand candles, bright, happy and with full of energy. I am waiting for him and he is not coming.

 Don't give me advise. This is not my first rodeo. I have done all that meditation, patience, prayer and problem is, it is not that I cannot do it any more but the real problem is what if I do these things for my whole life and he does not come? I mean I am losing my 20s and the way 20s is almost gone in blink of an eye 30s will also go and I am not gonna get a handsome guy as boyfriend when I will be in my 40s. I will be looking horrible then.

 I did so many things to get a good boyfriend, did 16 somvar vrats of lord Shiva, went to gym, took lots of good snaps, enrolled on every gay dating site, went out an "socialized", meditations, visualizations, visions boards, tell me what I have not done?

All it feels like the time is slipping out of my fist as sea sand.  But then I think from another angle. I think that it is me who thinks like it is me who deserves a good boyfriend and I should receive it but what does universe see it as? What does universe has for me? and when? is it now or years laters? or decade or never? philiosophical angles says "chill" and practical angle says"move your butt". Trapped between these two logic I am simple single gay guy thinking about mystery of unknown future.

What DaddyHunt's Youtube Series Taught Me About Real Life Love?

I don't know how many of you have seen this latest video on internet which is becoming very popular in gay community. It is a small youtube series done by DADDYHUNT app. It is very adorable, very cute and simple amazing.

It starts with a lead actor moves into new apartment where  he accidentally bumps into a guy who he thinks is a handyman and make him fix his sink faucet. Later when he realizes that that cutie daddy was not handyman but neighbour our lead tries to say thank you to him and that turns into dinner invitation and there starts the story with amazing ups and downs and surprising turns. What happens at the end is no need to say an amazing ending. It is the much needed serving of enjoyable love stories that gays been craving for long time. A total series of duration of around 7 minutes is as addictively magnificent as any Nicholas Parks romantic novel based movie.

 There are three things I learned from this video. They are Love can happen anywhere, any where you can meet our soulmate, you don't know what that simple "Hi" will turn out to be. Second is never take things what they look as, in movie the lead thinks that the super hot cutie daddy is handy man but in real he is not. I don't wanna spoil anything but at the dinner evening lead one more time take things for wrong impression and so the lead's crush take it in hallway when he sees lead with his friend.

Third and most important is not all gay apps are something bad thing to hang out at. In the movie both men meet in real world first but it is that app where they open up to each other and speak the truth and from there their story begins.  These all gay dating apps need not to be used for physical pleasure purpose only. You can make many things there. It is not app that is dirty but the people who hang out there can make it deal or no deal. So stop looking gay dating apps as some online bath house but try to interact with people there. On apps all profiles are with pis full of cute smiles and sexy abs but no body knows how amazing the human behind that pic or no pic could be.

 I really liked this video of DaddyHunt and I really give them a huge round of applause for coming with this helpful message. Keep on DADDYHUNT, we are waiting for more videos.

Good Start Of 2016, but still there is lot to do.

Good morning friends and brothers. With sun shine of hope and joy of freedom I am writing my first post of 2016.

What a wonderful start 2016 has given us! Supreme court has finally shown some soft side and decided to open our appeal. They have finally decided to reconsider the old British law which they are still having in their books even after British left us decades go.  After the great Indian election so many things are happening in India. Everybody is shouting to prove his point right. Pseudo-intellectual are doing no job than crying for everything but they never cried for our rights.

  Any way, I am happy that this new possibility of change will give us one more opportunity to get freedom, freedom to live in our home country without being criminal and being who we are. So I really wish us all all the best and pray that we get justice. But dear friends our fight does not stop here. Verdict of this reopned case will one more time bring us on center stage where every indian will see us, observe us and I am sorry to say but many of them will judge us. So this is our opportunity to make sure that they do not get any wrong impression about us. In this situation every one of us is a gay ambassador to the whole Indian straight world. Our one act of un-intention will either make them kick out their wrong perceptions about LGBT community and open their hearts for gay people or will drag them many years away from accepting homosexuality. So in this delicate condition my dear friends please be humble and act wisely because believe me my friends there are so many homophobes out there who could be looking for that one chance to prove us un ethical, evil, alien, mentally disturbed and uncivilized. Please don't give them any chance. I know we are not gonna do that this time, in fact we are gonna confidently gonna show them our colorful faces and show them that we are also one of them. And who knows may be then they will accept us.

One thing is true that even court makes it legal, our fight will not stop there.

Hope,

Indian Metro GAY :)

Guys on Dating Apps.

Shifting Phase of My Gay Life!

  It was not long ago when first time I felt this feeling. I found it pretty unusual when friends on facebook of my age were continuously posting pics of their every moment. I (& they) were 26-27 then. But then after a year I started loosing interest in Facebook. AlthoughI had so many rocking weekday events and dates with sexy guys I was just not that much motivated to put every moment of that time on facebook through pictures. And then I dated this handsome guy. Even one pic with that hot guy would had created 100s of likes on my facebook time line but I did not post that. I was having fun with him, romantic dates and hot sex but I just did not felt like posting that part of my life on facebook.

I am not saying that I became discreet or double standard. No! I am still that proud Gay man with brain of teenager. I have lots of things going on in my head. There are so many gay thing that I wanna speak 24 *7 all the time. But these things I cannot speak on facebook because I have family friends and cousins added in my facebook profile and I don't want to come out to them and my parents.  Also, on facebook I cannot say that "OMG! I so much Love Stephen Amell! He has body like hot stud wanna feel like grabbing it!" No!  All I can say there is "It's Sunday again, looking forward to watch Arrow tonight. XXX YYY (that girlfriend of Oliver Queen, I still don't know her name) is gorgeous!" I hate it.

 Even my all gay friends on Facebook keep posting posts like these. They pick some famous action violent movie or tv series in which guy is ok looking and people say gal is HOT and they posts on facebook something that will make people believe that they are big fan of that book, author on what that movie / tv series is based upon and this guy has that high intellectual taste. They could be having that genuine taste but which gay guy would genuinely notice that gal in movie (and then fall for her) if the leading guy is so jaw droopingly, deliciously hot?

 Common guys, gimme break!

All I think when I read their posts is this gif.

And then those lonely  souls who try to fill the emptiness of heart by spending time with their so called close buddies (read as sisters traveling in same boat). Every moment every activity has to be posted on facebook and have these "friends" tagged in it. Why would a gay man between age 25- 29 would constantly feel this urge of posting pics on facebook ? If they spend those evenings dating new guys from apps (apps that they always see as tacky but have their own faceless pics upon) they might meet a wonderful guy.

 The whole purpose of these guys' life is to put every activity on Facebook. So that people will like it and then they will feel complete. I know that everybody love to spend their time the way they want. People feel good when they have like minded people around and with them they can talk about anything but Fcaebook is not place for that. Like I gave example of Stephen Amell above, I cannot post those things on Facebook. But I have Twitter for that. And a fake id. Through which I constantly tweet about my male crushes and ongoing observations of gay life.  I don't get involved so much on facebook and irritate others by trying to prove how cool I am. I rather go out and meet people in person. I meet people from different backgrounds and age. I make friends with them, like real one. This evening I was in a hospital, paying visit tom one of my best friends who has no Facebook profile, he is funny, self proclaimed cinema critic, sommelier and great cook.

 I like this way, I met really cool guys and real men. Like men they show in suits commercial. None of them were on facebook and I got to learn a lot from these alpha males. Their style, their discipline their way of communicating was way different, top-notch and aristocratically adequate. These men are not on facebook, twitter or instagram coz they spend their internet free time surfing stock updated from their blackberries or searching new exercise plan from their iPhones. These are men every one must date once in life. I like hanging out with such gay men now rather than spending time on facebook clicking Like on some pompous, always smiling "friend".

   I like such kind of men now. Smart, calm, balanced. These men are great listeners and share a lot through well crafted small sentences. These men are passionate for their life, devoted to career and health. And this devotion gives some unusual rare charming allure to their personality and aura. These men don't talk on phone, they just text a plan of weekend and when you meet them over beer in patio and they start talking. They are someone like Oliver Queen, Harvey Specter or Bruce Wayne.  I like these kind of friends now.

                       
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 A friend who you can trust, rely upon and talk about anything.  If saying this makes people think that I am old then let them think that. I know that I am not old, I am just maturing. And as long as that chaotic tweets posting teenage brain is concerned I would call it teenage heart.


I am Happy About This New Phase Of My Gay Life :)

One small request to my readers.

Dear friends,

Thank you so much for giving me a huge love through your daily visits to my blog. I really appreciate the time that you are spending on my blog. It also make me feel good that you find my blog interesting and hence you visit here again and again. Thank you so much for your love dear readers.

 Today I have a small request for you. At this stage of writing I would love to know from you that what exactly you like about my stories, what are the scope for me for improvement and what kind of stories you would love to see here. If I get your feedback guys it will not only help me to present  you more engaging stories but it will also encourage me more to write.

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Thank you so much once again for all your love and thank you for your valuable time that you spent reading this post.

Love,
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Boyfriend is Sunday. Sunday is Boyfriend.

On this sunny Sunday afternoon of Autumn I am writing this post by sitting on couch, overlooking my backyard. Today I am writing this post because I felt something unusual. I just realized that how beautiful this Sunday afternoon is. I am feeling relaxed, I am chilling in this beautiful weather, I am feeling like sunny warm sun rays are cuddling my body fondly. I wont stop myself saying that I am feeling pampered. Isn't it the feeling that we get when we are in love?

     We all have that imaginary vision of would be boyfriend in our minds. We hold that imagination describing how our life would be when we have that cute, caring, loving man in our apartment as a boyfriend. What he would do when we are enjoying Sunday afternoon together in apartment. Laundries are done, lunch is done, we have watched a good movie last night and not glued to Netflix.  We are just enjoying each other's company like body soaking sun rays of spring sun after a long winter. 

  I get all these feeling on sunny Sunday afternoon. I do not have that perfect lovely gentleman in my life who would bring spring in my single wintery life. Not yet. But soon it will come. And this sunny Sunday afternoon give me hint of that future would be thing. 

Although he is not here yet, I know how it will be when he will be here. It will be like a sunny Sunday afternoon.

Boyfriend is Sunday. Sunday is Boyfriend.