Stay Strong, This Too Shall Pass.

Dear Friends,

Hello from my apartment in Toronto. Today I decided to pen down few inspirational words for those who are struggling emotionally during this COVID 19 lockdown and pandemic. As we all can guess, most of us are inside our houses and apartments. We are not going out. Some of us haven't gone outside in weeks. And this is putting a lot of emotional pressure on us. Lot of us are scared of getting infected with this virus, others cannot just see being so helpless. Even I am also not happy because of this stay home situation.
  But dear friends, this too shall pass. I know things look very grim and we are seeing soaring figures of new patients getting infected everyday. But we have to believe that things will change and our lives will go to normal. And one day we will start going out and start living normal life. But it  is just now we have to be careful and stay inside, stay careful. Please take care of yourselves, don't let your heart fall into despair. Use this time to create something that will remain as good memory for rest of your life. Write your thoughts, do some origami (heard that is good for stress), do some exrercise, learn new language, read some book. Plan your next vacation. Do something that will keep your mind active. But don't sit idle. Please think that things could have been worse. Believe it or not but I spent almost all of my life back in India like this. Sitting inside, not going out much because boys would bully or beat me. No one to talk to, no one to talk about my hobbies with. Even if stay inside then my brash father would beat me to make me a "MAN". Living in constant fear. But I used that time to read books and learn about world outside four walls of my house. And today I am here in Canada living my life safely and without any fear. If I can survive in situation worse than this for 20 + years, then you can at least give some try. 
   I never wanted to bring about my past but lately I have been feeling this push of responsibility from inside to pen down this to encourage others to stay inside. There are millions of people in other end of the world living in far worse situation for years. Compared to that, this few months of stay home situation is nothing. We can at least stay inside and be grateful that one day things will change.  So my dear friends. Please be safe. Take care of your health and your heart. Be positive. And we will go out in sunshine again.

See Yah.

Happy Social Distancing!

My Gaming Affair - Part 2 - How Gaming Changed My Personality, Social and Real Life!

My dear friends. Thank you for reading and loving my last post about gaming. Today I am writing again about my gaming experience. Last time I wrote about how me and gaming’s love story started. When I look back I see that as a romantic love story from 1950s where guy and girl take a lot of time to make love with each other. I was like Natalie Wood from Splendour in The Grass. After getting into gaming the story was like 50 Shades Of Grey. Every day was a new experience for my virgin mind and XBOX was playing like experienced Mr Grey. There is a famous line in Fifty Shades Of Grey, “I never knew what I wanted until I look into your eyes”. I was just like that with little alterations. I was saying to XBOX One that, I never knew what I liked until I played Call Of Duty!

   Gaming came into my lonely boring single gay life late, but better late than never. The first game I played on my console was Forza 5. I didn’t knew it was so hard to play, I was hitting Chrysler at so many places. I though I won’t be able to make it. Then I played Assassins Creed 4. it was really nice experience for me. Watching that beautiful Caribbean green scenary on high definition 40’ screen was a treat for eyes. Also, game was easy to control I liked it. And then after 1 week I brought Ori and The Blind Forest. And here a child in me came out. My all time favourite game till that day was Mario  Bros. It was a fun game, playing an arcade game, making Mario walk on wall, it would move mostly in 2 directions. Or was also like that but with modern edge graphics and beautiful music. I loved playing it. I felt like child again. And then came COD.

  Unti now I was looking at COD like a rich, handsome, playboy, hunk like high school’s senior. Who is best in everything he does, who has many girlfriends, who date only hottest girls. Who is straight and you know he is not even going to reply your ‘hello’ but you so wanna be with him.  But by now I had done some progress in Forza 5, in Assassins Creed I was doing good and Ori was going excellent. With these three friends I had gained little confidence and brought Call of Duty GHOSTS. I had never played such high quality shoot out game before. What if I couldn’t play this game? By huge nervousness I started the first episode of this game. And from then my real gaming life started.

  By this point it is not a hidden thing that I finished that 1st level successfully. But the main scoop is how I felt about it. Imagine if you are a gay guy, you have this huge crush on high school’s football captain who looks like Chris Hemsworth, he who dates girls that look like Taylor Swift, who looks so straight that you know you are never gonna have any chance with him. But one day in locker room you and he is alone, you both share cold passing eye contact from distance, next time when your turn around you find him right behind you, so close, he is staring at you, he is shirtless, and he suddenly hugs you and kiss you passionately. He look into your eyes and say, ‘dude I love you so much’ and both you start making love.

How you will feel if this happen to you? I felt that when I successfully finished COD’s first game episode. All these times I have been seeing COD handled and celebrated by aggressive guys, I had never thought that I can ever play that game and most importantly, enjoy that game. I did it. I loved it. I had risen to a new level. Something impossible to me I had done and I was moved out of my comfy zone! Yes I was feeling victorious. 

 My serious romance with gaming had started. Every day after work I would come home quick and play the video game. Every time I would face difficult level, I would come over it and it would increase my determination, joy and self-confidence! I would shout "Yes I can do it” after every gaming session. It improved my confidence, multi tasking and time management. Not only in games but out of games too. Earlier it would take a 15 mins for me to do a certain job now I would finish it in 5 mins. I was more alert, more detail oriented and had developed keen eye for minor details.  Getting into gaming slowly turned me into a confident person. Talking about alertness in real life, one day in public transit bus one old lady slipped her foot and fell backwards but I swiftly turned and catched her before she fell down on floor. She said me thank you. Every body in bus gave me applauding gaze. I saved a life may be? Thanks to gaming. Now I have more friends, I am dating men with richer qualities, men who are more mature by mind, kinda thorough gentlemen. I often go out more with friends. It is much better than before.

 Gaming has brought many positive changes in my life. I feel like a new person. 

Serious Talk - I Wish Jason Shah Was Gay

Ok! Before we go ahead let me clear few things.

I am not crushing on Jason,
I am not saying Jason is Gay,
I am not watching Bigg Boss,
I haven't watched last few seasons of Bigg boss.

Since I dated a Russsian guy this summer, my way of communication has changed. I just cannot speak/write anything other than talking straight. But I will try to write back in my old ways and be enough expressive.

By now we all know that Jason Shah is the new wild card entry in reality TV show Bigg Boss 10.  He is a handsome hunk with haunting blue eyes and killer jaw bone. He has those big muscles will not go unnoticed by any person. He is a handsome man.


The moment I saw him something echoed in my mind. It was a memory of an old conversation I once had overheard in public bus. Two straight men were talking about their friend who was not present there at that time. They were making fun of him and calling him names and gay. What made them declare him gay was his flamboyant body language and slender body. One guy said to other, if a guy has so slender body and he acts feminine,doesn't act manly then he has to be GAY. Ordinary straight Indians have this huge misconception about gay people.  Even media and Bollywood also believes in this it seems. Many gay characters in movies and TVs are slim men with feminine body behaviour.

 They don't understand or know that what they think about us is wrong. Gay community also has manly acting, muscular men with muscular physique. Our community does have men like these. But public doesn't know that and media keeps feeding their misbelief by portraying gay men as flamboyant men. I wish regularIndians could see in grindr, I wish they could see many profiles of men on grindr with pictures of muscular men.


All LGBT community is trying so hard to make mainstream straight society accept us. As a marketing graduate what comes in my mind is a marketing theory that could help straight people know us better.  This marketing Model is AIDA model. What it is? Let me explain. We need to think as if we are launching a new product. First, we need to grab people's attention by showing them something that they never seen before. That is Attention of A. Then create Interest in People's minds, let them have Desire to know hthat new thing and then let them take Action. This sequence of Attention, Interest, Desire and Action is called AIDA model.

I think that presenting a gay man with hot muscles and handsome face will be a good first step of AIDA model in Indian public. This is to bring mainstream people closer to gay community. How it will work on TV?  Bring an out gay man who look like Jason on reality shows like Bigg Boss. And then let people see him. How it will work? Explain below in diagram.

This model has worked before. Lakshmi Narayan Tripathi and Sunny Leone from Bigg Boss season 5, all have won hearts of millions of people by their smartness, kindness and great character. This formula has worked before for lesbians, Transgenders, straight people and now it is time to apply this formula on gay men too.  I know Bigg Boss had many great gay men on their show before but they need to go one step ahead. They need to find a gay man who is so handsome that it will make women day dream despite they knowing that he is gay, he should have so hot body that he will motivate straight men to hit the gym, he should be so smart, well mannered, well behaved and most important - should have a strong character that he will win support of many viewers, he should be so total package that he should win the show by huge public support. And then people (even though some) will see us in a different way and accept us like one of their own.

This whole post was just a summary of all thoughts that came in my mind when I saw Jason Shah. Indian gay community needs to find their desi version of Anderson Cooper, Ellen Degeneres, Tom Daley and Neil Patrick Harris. Gay men have so much to offer, let Indians receive it.

What DaddyHunt's Youtube Series Taught Me About Real Life Love?

I don't know how many of you have seen this latest video on internet which is becoming very popular in gay community. It is a small youtube series done by DADDYHUNT app. It is very adorable, very cute and simple amazing.

It starts with a lead actor moves into new apartment where  he accidentally bumps into a guy who he thinks is a handyman and make him fix his sink faucet. Later when he realizes that that cutie daddy was not handyman but neighbour our lead tries to say thank you to him and that turns into dinner invitation and there starts the story with amazing ups and downs and surprising turns. What happens at the end is no need to say an amazing ending. It is the much needed serving of enjoyable love stories that gays been craving for long time. A total series of duration of around 7 minutes is as addictively magnificent as any Nicholas Parks romantic novel based movie.

 There are three things I learned from this video. They are Love can happen anywhere, any where you can meet our soulmate, you don't know what that simple "Hi" will turn out to be. Second is never take things what they look as, in movie the lead thinks that the super hot cutie daddy is handy man but in real he is not. I don't wanna spoil anything but at the dinner evening lead one more time take things for wrong impression and so the lead's crush take it in hallway when he sees lead with his friend.

Third and most important is not all gay apps are something bad thing to hang out at. In the movie both men meet in real world first but it is that app where they open up to each other and speak the truth and from there their story begins.  These all gay dating apps need not to be used for physical pleasure purpose only. You can make many things there. It is not app that is dirty but the people who hang out there can make it deal or no deal. So stop looking gay dating apps as some online bath house but try to interact with people there. On apps all profiles are with pis full of cute smiles and sexy abs but no body knows how amazing the human behind that pic or no pic could be.

 I really liked this video of DaddyHunt and I really give them a huge round of applause for coming with this helpful message. Keep on DADDYHUNT, we are waiting for more videos.