Yes my dear friends, you read it right. Today I am writing about dating Mr. Perfect. A guy I dated last year for a while. It's a quite interesting story. This experience was different. This is the same guy that I wrote about in my previous post "New Season - New Turn In Life."
Early summer last year I became fan of famous Indy movie actor and director Ed Berns. I liked his personality and style. I was always a fan of Ryan Reynolds. I like Ryan's face, he is a real handsome Canadian man. So I started thinking how romantic it would be if I meet a guy who look like Ryan Reynolds and has a personality like Ed Burns? That would be like a sugar in milk, like Xbox one with Xbox gold subscription, like an iPhone 7 with Apple Watch and EarPods. A perfect combo you know? I wished for such a guy and got busy in my regular work.
And then one day on match.com app I stumbled upon one profile. The only picture visible was he sitting on a chair in shadow. Was not able to see his face clearly but something pinched my heart and made me open his profile. I saw his pictures, he was average looking guy, something was telling me that I must say "hi" to this guy. I sent hi, after few days he replied my hi. We exchanged startup conversation rituals ( how is it going, what's ur name?) and started the chat. One thing I noticed about this guy is that this guy was proactive, he was replying my messages instantly and was writing many lines than throwing short sentences. His profile said he is looking to get married and he asked me to meet within first week of our chat. You might think that this guy was appearing despo but he was not. NO he wasn't a despo kinda guy. He was well mannered, well behaved guy. All his communication was showing that he is eager to know me than sleeping with me. We decided a day, he came to Swiss Chalet near my house and we met over dinner.
That was a wonderful first date, he talked a lot, we exchanged many pages of our lives. In that meeting I came to know that he is also fan of 80s music and Simon & Granfunkel like me. That was first time I was seeing him in real and I realized that he does not look like his pictures in real. In real he look like Ryan Reynolds and has personality and voice like Ed Burns. Something what I had really wished before. He was a dream come true. I was with a guy who was good looking, good personality, no drama ,mature minded hot guy who was interested in me. He was not like regular fake guys, at least what I felt so. While dropping me home, I was nervous, I did not wanted to appear so cheesy by giving him hug so I gave him hand for goodby shake hand. And he said , common man and hugged me tightly. He said I am really nice guy and he would love to meet with me again for sure. He dropped me in my drive way and left. I was there still shocked. I can't believed that it happened!
And so my dating summer started. Ryan ( it is not his real name but let's call him Ryan because he look like Ryan Reynolds) and I texted each other back to back, he added me on Facebook, we talked about our families, his mother sent him picture of her snow filled front yard for me because I like Christmas. We were communicating with each other which is really very rare now days in dating. He also invited me to his place over weekend. I could not go to his place so he came to my place over a weekend. That was a great afternoon, we started talking and as expected a little bit romance took place. But we did notion any extreme. That evening he took me for dinner at another Swiss Chalet near my house. We had really great time, he talked so much with me openly and even kissed me in public. That is something I had not expected from him, but I liked it, I liked that dashingness in Ryan. I just so wanted to be within more and he too with me. We were having real discussions like grown men. He was so happy and relaxed with me. After dinner he said he will drop me over my place and go home, I asked him to drop in grocery store which was further away from my house and on his way. I told him I wanted to pick up some veggies but all I wanted was spending some time with him. We reached grocery store, this is the place where he kissed me, we said goodbye to each other and he left by saying see you again.
He left, I was in that parking lot of store feeling stuck, was not able to move, something was holding me there, asking me to call him back. I was feeling suddenly so scared and lonely. Even though I was gonna meet him next weekend as he promised. But I was so scared. Turn out, that's the last time we saw each other.
In our first meeting or even before that Ryan had admitted that he is getting very busy in office and his boss is doing some stressful things. But after our last meeting Ryan suddenly got busy in his office. So busy that he did not even replied to my texts. He said he got a big promotion or something and that's why he is so busy temporary till X date. After X date he will call me back and we will go to his place in countryside. X date came and went. Turn out that my Hollywood star lookalike had gotten one more promotion and he became more busy and gave me one more date, Y date. Y date came and went, and yes, you won't believe but my great date had gotten one more promotion and had become more busy. And now this time he did not gave me any date buy gave a season. He said in summer he will get back to me. I knew one thing that he was really busy and really getting promotions because he was constantly updating his facebook posts and details. He was not lieing. I really needed to act with patience else I would appeared like a child before him. And that is the last thing I want to happens between us.
Being a mature minded gay man whose heart has been serially crushed, I won't say I love Ryan, I have no expectations from anybody. I would say I really really liked Ryan. He is a perfect man who is not in that downtown drinking scene and has word marriage in his vocabulary. It is so rare to find men like this. I like Ryan because what he is, what he make me feel when I am with him. When I am with him, I feel that event our silence is communicating a lot. He makes me feel heard, he makes me feel needed, he makes me feel complete.
But being few years older than me, in his backpack he has those few concerns ripped from his previous heart breaks. He will always pull them out no matter what I say and how much wiser I act. He is a big guy now, making a lot of money and that makes this equation difficult from my end. I need to be careful to not appear cheesy to him. I mean, I don't want him to think that I am behind him because he is rich now. All I can and need to do is wait for his summer to rise. Meanwhile, work on myself, making sure not to expect anything from him, and not make any plans. So I am doing that, I am going back to school, deleted his number from my cellphone and do not message him on Facebook. I like that guy so much and I won't mind waiting for him. If he comes to me then I will be the happiest guy on earth, but if he not, then this will give me great lesson to me and test. Test to overcome his memories.
I have dated many guys in my life but never saw a man like this one. This guy is perfect, he is a man. I don't have a perfect boyfriend but at least I have possibility of having a great man as a boyfriend. Sometimes all you need is hope, and that is what he has given me. No matter what come out of this it will not make me sad for sure.
